Crazy as usual

Let’s see what has happened to me lately? I was forced to watch Eat Pray Love and let me tell you I could literally hear periods synchronising with each other over great distances. As usual my face is covered in pimples mostly tiny and mostly on my forehead. I’m almost finished re-watching the first season of my favourite anime Black Lagoon then I’m going to watch the season season which I have only seen like four or five episodes of. After that I will be diving into this anime called Elemental Gelade which I had never heard of before until I saw the cover on QuickFlix and it seemed interesting when I read the description so I decided it would be the anime I jump into next. I am going to dye my hair black just because I would think it would make my blue eyes and pale skin pop out more. Over a month ago I sprained my ankle yet my foot is still fucked up so it’s very stressful to walk but because of my OCD about walking I still do it. What else? My dad moved in with me and mum so that’s been hilarious to see them interact nicely. Also I have mentioned before about how my sister lost half my PlayStation 2 games collection when she was doing one of her cleaning frenzies well I was able to find in the pre-owned pile my favourite of the games she lost which was Jak X which I have played non stop since I got it. Of course that means that I still don’t have Jak 3, Soulcalibur 2, Soulcalibur 3, Ratchet & Clank (Probably the one I will never forgive my sister for losing) Ratchet & Clank 2. Oh I’m royally pissed that when I finally write something completely original than post it to DeviantART and FanFiction.net that it doesn’t get any views. I’m going to continue writing it though just because I need to. Also I am sick of talking about Naruto and writing about Naruto which is probably why I haven’t been able to even write a sentence for any of my Art trades, Requests or Personal projects. I guess that’s about it and don’t take it personally when I say you can all fucking die it has just been one of those weeks probably because the Jak & Daxter game series always gives me the weirdest of mood swings which probably isn’t good for someone with Bipolar disorder but I just love the game series so my illness can go fuck itself.

A few weeks ago I put in an applications for a hair dressing course at Gosford TAFE and I’m probably not going to get in. For one There is plenty of girls my age who look the part more than I do and act it as well plus as required for the interview with the career’s counsellor (Which I suspect gives her opinion to the teachers who pick out the applications for classes) I had to tell my medical history which includes ADHD and Autism and you just know they’re not going to pick the kid with the disability over the bitch whose only problem is being a slut. I’m not saying that the other candidates are sluts but most women who go into the beauty profession are. Of course writing this journal is kind of pointless as I doubt any one is actually going to comment because I’m lucky if I get one comment, and if I even get a comment it soon changes the subject altogether very quickly. Bloody hell I get more attention from my father than I do on this or any other site where I supposedly have friends.

I just did a mass edit on my Blog and deleted a lot of my posts.

Oh dear I’ve been fucking your mind since you gave the first question of your wild questioning spree that is the beauty of a true mind fuck the other person doesn’t even know it’s happening to them. Can you feel my enormous rock hard cock penetrating her wet cunt? No because that is the beauty of mind fucking.

My one and only Neji Hyuga commands you to ask me a question.

Well my story starts at six when my mother brought me home one day and everything in the house was packed up and I was shocked because I had not been given any prior warning to are move, we travelled over three days and two night from Bondi in New South Wales to some weird suburb by the beach in Victoria. A few days later we found a home in this suburb called Carrum Downs which is one of the suburbs owned by the famous town of Frankston surprisingly with all the white trash around there was barely any murders go figure huh? I kind of settled in quickly until I went to school sure I was fine the first few weeks of second grade but I started to notice after a month no matter how nice I was to people they treated me like shit so I would try to get the people who would tease me in trouble but that never worked I just kept getting in trouble so I decided to ignore everyone until the next year at that school, it wasn’t my intention to be noticed then but my teacher Miss Hayne was such a charming person and I could tell she was actually one of the few teachers who actually did care about all her students. Of people still teased me and I started to act out at more drastic measures until grade four when a boy named Joshua Bird moved to the area and started school there at Rowellyn and I was excited because I liked him a lot and after a few months he ended up being my first boyfriend but his friends didn’t like me so the day after he asked me out his friends got him to break up with me and this kept going on for months until his friends and I came to the arrangement of me having him for half the week and them the other half, this went on till grade five (the next year) when they finally stopped hating me and realised I wasn’t a girly girl and din’t push him away from his friends. This fear his friends had came from his girlfriends before who we’re catty and hated his friends and wanted him to stop hanging out with them, any way in grade six we stopped dating altogether and he started dating this girl named Kayla and one day I saw them hugging in the court yard and shrugged it off because I was more concerned on developing myself as a person then having a boyfriend. I started act a whole lot like a boy and still do to this day because it was a way of rebelling against my mother who had stopped all contact with my dad until I was nine just out of spite for him and still to this day I am finding myself. Now lets fast forward to year nine where I met the most beautiful and kind hearted person I would ever know Christopher Barrett we met on the first day of year nine what happened was I was searching for a chair and table to sit at with out Kirstiee Tobin who was miss most popular girl in school and for some reason insisted on me becoming one of her friends which meant acting like her and I didn’t want any part of that at the time, I sat at the only available spot in the are and this giant six foot tall boy was sitting at the table (tall men being a big turn on for me) and I was in a bitchy mood and din’t want to talk and I gave off the look of such feelings yet he smiled and said hello to me and all my anger just melted away. Any way this went on for a month until one day I realised I had feelings for him and put on a whole bunch of make up and jewellery to get him to notice me but that didn’t work so I just came out and said I liked him over the course of our relationship I grew to more than like him I grew to love him and I and I was so overwhelmed with is love that I tried anything to push him away like being majorly clingy and calling him and texting like over forty times a day, after a while of this I tried to make the relationship work and this was new territory for both of us because this was his first relationship ever and it was my first love and I even was willing to give myself fulling to him and have sex but it just never happened well there was this one moment when he was about to go down on me but his phone went flying off my television (he placed it on top of my phone and had his on vibrate) and we just never got back to that moment so I guess it was never meant to be. A month or so after that incident he broke up with me and we never saw each other again so for six months I could do nothing but sleep I couldn’t even stay up to eat, and some where down the line I get a message on facebook from him saying hi and the usual online conversation stuff and he were getting along fine for a long time and we had gotten into online sexting you know we would just send messages of what we would do to each other sexually. Until March 2010 a few days before my birthday he committed suicide and my first reaction was this a joke and then when I had confirmed it on my birthday no less my reaction was nothing and then after a few hours I laughed for a minute it was rough at first because every second of every day all I could think about was him and to this day I can’t go a day with out thinking about him and I still can’t get over that such a beautiful person had been taken from the world or why he did it because he had everything he desired. Sure I haven’t mentioned everything in this but this has been my story and thank you for reading.

Lol.

My one and only Neji Hyuga commands you to ask me a question.

tevere asked: merry christmas and a happy new awesome year! :DD

Thank you and happy new year to you too.

Okay as usual I was playing my favourtie final fantasy game which is final fantasy tactics advance for gameboy advance, yes I still have my gameboy advance and I got it the year it came out too and it still runs like it was brand new. Any way I’ve played the game all the way through minus some side quests and I was starting to think that square enix should remake this final fantasy because it’s more original than what they have been doing these days face it any true fan knows the original final fantasies are the best not this conformist crap with Cloud and Sephiroth and Reno, I personally think that all the originals should be remade and that way they could have better graphics and more added to the story lines and more side quests. I’d personally like to think which of the originals you guys think should be remade.

Now on to my manga I have finally have a name for the manga it’s going to be called underground nations, the reason why this is because it sums up the story. The story starts in 2310 where nuclear chemicals have reacted with a project of the scientist Helk Krugar the project was to create humanoid beings also known as humonculi, it was called project alchemist and in the first initial tests of creating life he mimicked the looks of televison and game characters then added personalities too them but the American government wanted to use them as weapons of war but so that wouldn’t happen he created the organization storm raiders to protect and hide the humonculi then killed himself to make sure no one would ever find out. In 2400 the organization of storm raiders gather information about the American government restarting project alchemist and as turns out they we’re right and several of these humonculi end up finding members of the organization storm raiders and it’s a race against the clock to stop the rebirth of project alchemist.

avymus-deactivated20120207 asked: Re: http://pw-blog.tumblr.com/post/1399946730/roommate-nightmares

"Why don’t you room with your boyfriend if it’s this difficult?

I'm not sure how to explain this accurately but I'm not too keen on living together with him. Not just yet. I find that we're not at that stage where I feel particularly comfortable doing that.

Personally, it's a huge step similar to being engaged or married but I do sleep over occasionally when I need to distance myself from them. I hope that makes sense!

And also, I am bound to a lease I cannot break (breaking it would be too costly).

Oh that explains a lot.